There are alot of things being kept inside me for so long....but it's seems like even i'm willing to endure or even let go .... things still the same. My life is like a mountain....nothing goes smoothly for me..... God....bless....me.....im still wondering!!!!

I'm reli sick of life.....i'm i going to live in this situatuion till old??? Been wondering for long.......sometimes things just can't stop happening!!!! Just exactly like her own mother....behaving like shit!!! Despite me telling, nagging, talking, scolding or even beating.....things just won't work anymore!!!! Being a pampered child, nothing can be done!!!!! Looking at her sometimes i endure as no matter WAT....ppl always say me "I'M NOT HER REAL MOTHER!!!!" Being a stepmother is not as simple as ppl think. No one will support you and doing thousands of good thing is not as good as doing ONE BAD things...ppl will ALWAYS remember the BAD instead of GOOD!!!! What am i suppose to do???? Tell me???? I have alreay tried my very best in everything!!! Things just wont work....couldn't work i would say. The more older she grow the more hatered i get. There is no more patient in me already!!! Because of her, i have been quarrelling or arguing even more. How am i suppose to live with all this?? Work already giving me enough stress...pay & allowance being cut off, back home another stress come in.....i'm reli going crazy soon!!!!! Ppl always say being a stepmother is never easy.....i would say being a stepmother is always a loser. Children is always the winner. Even yr "VERY OWN FAMILY" won't help you but the child!!!!! life reli sucks...SUCKS....you understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went JB with lao Gong, Shuway, & na na.....on 18/02/09....Wednesday....@@ Soooo enjoyable....cos we went massage, pedicure & shopping....^-^...now steamboat dinner.... This Shuway tot ppl don't know it's wednesday that day....wearing tt tshirt....GRENNISH WOMEN...hur hur....

Waiting for the food to be cooked....hur hur.....HUNGRY liao!!!!!

Guess wat....This year Valentine's Day is my happiest moment...Suddenly 360 degree change lo...i'm working...he sms me "wanna come to the bridge to smoke"....as usual i never give a second thought and went out....SUrPrISe......I got flowers for Valentine's too....SooooOOOooo Happy.......

Me & Jie.....Me & ChuTing....

My Whole Family....Jie...Where is yr 2 little "Bao Bei" huh??? Playing hide & seek huh???

Squeeze you like crazy.....hur hur hur

lovely couple yea....

Nice pose right.....

CNY 2009....Golden Cow Year.....

ChuTing (future sister in law) with Jiaxi & keith on CHU YI.....@ Dad's place....

Can you tell from Daddy face expression ** he is soooooo happy lor**

It's Daddy 67th Birthday.....after Bird Park...went head straight to dad's house for celebration....Mother didn't cook but we order from downstairs food stall...Sister bought cake from Breadtalk....

A Happy Outing for both kids & Baby sitter....hee hee....

This Keith is so brave lor....dare to walk by himself whereas....beverly....quickly jump onto the baby primp and cry....wahaha....little naughty girl**Pout**....i'm the most tired ones....cos pushing the primp the whole day....

Nice water fall right??? ** Faster come take photos**.....

Naughty Beverly throwing her temper because she fell down.....

Scary Eagle & layan griffon.......so big lor....

It's scary at first but in the end...all kids dare to walk liao.....

It's feeding time....Darling first time feeding the birds...scare & excited.....

Well....during off days went Jurong bird park....we lost our way in Jurong Island...wahaha...." Kids asking: Are we there???? Have we reached????" . . .they are so impatient...can't wait to see birds.....hee hee Keith is so happy and he always walk on his own.....like an " Old Uncle" cos holding beverly hand while walking.....like a Big Brother now.... Jonathan as usual...like a monkey jump here & there.... Beverly keep wanting to hold hands with Keith but ** Keith refused**...????? Dear Dear & me like baby sitter....wahahaha.....

Wahaha....long time never update myself liao ya.....Misses me???? Really busy la...no time for all..Hey hey....you will never know how busy i am lor.... time not enough la.. This year really a bad year for all...."bad times"...no bonus, no promotions, etc....But at least still got a job la..... We had a "Xmas 2008 cum Boss Birthday party" @ Sentosa. Really enjoy the cosy place, and of course , meeting "MY F4 once again"... **Chantel, Chucky, Valerie & myself**...... "We are the F4".... & my best buddy... **Janice**...so long never see her liao...ever since i changed to na na team....misses all of them so much....